Trembling With Fear 2-9-25

Greetings, children of the dark. I’m loaded full of cold and flu right now so will cut to the chase today with just a few parish notices:

  • We are now closed to Valentine’s submissions. Our V-day editor Jane Morecroft will be getting in touch in the coming days – if she hasn’t already – to let you know if you were successful. Make sure you keep an eye out for the Dark Love edition hitting the interwebz on Friday!
  • We are slowly, slowly working our way through the regular ol’ short story submissions from both the October and January window; please bear with us but we’re catching up slowly.
  • We’re also now proofreading the 2023 anthology, which should hopefully be ready soon. Thanks to the legend that is Steph Ellis for helping pull this together, and some of our fresh new residents of TWF Towers who are divvying up the proofreading to help out.
  • Finally, this is your regular reminder that we have an insatiable need for drabbles – like, all the damn time. Get your little darklings of exactly 100 words over to us via the submission form, and make sure they’re a complete story in and of themselves; as much as I love reading extracts from longer works, our drabbles need to work on their own more than anything. 

And so onto this week’s edition, where P.A. Cornell (a Nebula finalist, no less!) has a neighbour who takes a bit too much and faces the consequences. That’s followed by the short, sharp speculations of:

  • Nico Martinez Nocito’s glimmer in the dark,
  • Kelley Tai’s star-crossed lovers, and
  • Nissa Harlow’s woodland wanderings.

Over to you, Stuart.

Oh, PS: for those who have been following my creative burnout journey, guess what? I only bloody well finished and submitted an almost-10,000 word short story this week! I know, I can’t believe it either. It’s probably why I’m sick now…

Lauren McMenemy

Editor, Trembling With Fear

Hi all.

This week, I took some ‘me’ time to work on a novella that I’m hoping to submit before an upcoming deadline. I’ve got two to possibly three that I’m hoping to send to publishers this year. We’ll see if that happens! 

For Horror Tree, I did work on reading a LOT of fiction for our Valentine’s Day special and some drabbles. However, I still have a ton of shorts to read and to get our physical copy moving forward again. I also worked a ‘little’ on the website, waiting for a bit more internal feedback before the next set of updates. Hopefully, we’ll get that truly going soon! 

Now, for the standards:

  • Thank you so much to everyone who has become a Patreon for Horror Tree. We honestly couldn’t make it without you all!
  • Be sure to order a copy of Shadowed Realms on Amazon, we’d love for you to check it out and leave a review!

Offhand, if you’ve ordered Trembling With Fear Volume 6, we’d appreciate a review!

For those who are looking to connect with Horror Tree as we’re not really active on Twitter anymore, we’re also in BlueSky and Threads. *I* am also now on BlueSky and Threads.

Stuart Conover

Editor, Horror Tree

P.A. Cornell

P.A. Cornell is a Chilean-Canadian speculative fiction writer. A graduate of the Odyssey workshop, her stories have been published in over fifty magazines and anthologies, including Lightspeed, Apex, and three “Best of” anthologies. In addition to becoming the first Chilean Nebula finalist in 2024, Cornell has been a finalist for the Aurora and World Fantasy Awards, was longlisted for the BSFA Awards, and won Canada’s Short Works Prize. When not writing, she can be found assembling intricate Lego builds or drinking ridiculous quantities of tea. Sometimes both. For more on the author and her work, visit her website pacornell.com.

The Underlying Cause of Her Insomnia, by P.A. Cornell

I lie in bed doing the math. A week-and-a-half now where I can’t sleep more than an hour or two a night, if I manage to sleep at all. I’ve tried everything: pills, counting down from a thousand, even drinking fucking warm milk! Nothing helps. 

My work’s starting to suffer too. I can’t concentrate on anything. Yesterday I missed my bus stop and was twenty minutes late. My boss isn’t going to put up with much more of this. 

The hours are eternal as I wait for dawn to come. When it finally does, I’m too exhausted to shower. I throw on some clothes and I’m out the door. No coffee even. Caffeine doesn’t help anyway, it just makes me jittery. 

As I leave, I run into Adam, my neighbor, out in the hall.

“There’s my dream girl,” he says.

I must have a confused look on my face so he goes on.

“I’m sorry, Katherine, that came off creepy. You were just in one of my dreams again last night.”

He’s told me this before, though I don’t remember exactly when. Maybe earlier this week? My memory’s been off. Now he’s telling me about the latest dream but I’m not really listening. My focus has shifted to how much I envy him. If he’s dreaming, that means he’s sleeping. Soundly. He’s probably getting a full eight hours every night and waking refreshed. I don’t even remember what that’s like. God, I’d kill for eight hours of uninterrupted sleep.

He stops talking so I nod like I’ve heard what he’s saying and he smiles. 

“So, it’s a date then?” 

It hits me that I’ve agreed to go out with him or something. Adam’s harmless and I know he has a thing for me but I don’t feel the same way. Shit. How do I get out of this? I play along for the moment.

“So then…”

“My apartment; say seven?” he says. “Late dinner.”

I nod.

“Purely platonic,” he adds, no doubt sensing my awkwardness. “No pressure.”

“Sure.”

I wave to him as I leave, hating myself for giving him any kind of hope. He’s a decent guy, Adam. He doesn’t deserve to think he has a shot. If I wasn’t so tired, I could’ve said something to get me out of this. Now I’ll have to dwell on it all, wracking my exhausted brain to come up with an excuse. As if I didn’t have enough to deal with.

I get to work with no clear memory of the journey, but at least I’m on time. Tina’s in too. She comes by my cubicle to share the daily gossip. I have nothing to add, so I tell her about my accidental date, thinking maybe she can help me get out of it. 

“Poor guy,” she says. “You’ll have to let him down gently. If I were you, I’d just have dinner with him. He said it was friendly anyway. Then while you’re eating and making small talk, maybe slip in that you’re seeing someone. Or that you’re taking a break from dating to focus on your career.”

I nod. “What I really want to do is skip the date and go to bed early. I’m dying. I can’t even think straight anymore.” I tap the screen with my pen to show her what I’ve been working on. It’s an obvious mess, even to me.

“And that’s not even the worst of it,” I tell her. “Even simple things are getting tough to manage. I don’t even know how long I was brushing my teeth for this morning before I noticed I hadn’t used any toothpaste. I hear if you don’t get enough sleep you can start to go kind of crazy—hallucinating and stuff like that. If I don’t get some sleep soon, I feel like that’s where I’m headed.”

“You poor thing,” she says. “If it makes you feel any better, they say when you can’t sleep it’s because you’re awake in someone else’s dreams.”

It doesn’t make me feel any better.

She goes on to spread more office gossip and I nod along but I’m really just thinking about getting through another day without messing up enough to get canned.

###

On the bus ride home, I make up my mind to just be straight with Adam. Tell him I’m not into him and that I’m sorry but I can’t have dinner because I need to get some sleep. I miss my stop again and I have to double back on foot a few blocks, reaching my building later than I’d hoped.

I knock on the door across the hall and after a second, Adam opens it, holding a steak knife. I smell the aromatics wafting through the door and my stomach rumbles. Stomachs don’t care about sleep. I wonder what was on the menu. He probably told me but I’d obviously tuned out if he did.

“Hey,” I start. He smiles and I take in the lack of dark circles and puffiness. He looks alert, happy. Nothing like my face in the mirror. Suddenly I’m overwhelmed with hatred for him and everyone else who’s getting enough sleep. It’s all I can do to keep from slapping him. I take a deep breath instead and as I do, the conversation with Tina flashes back into my head and I think again about Adam telling me about his dreams. A glimmer of hope begins to form in my mind and I smile. “I hope I’m not too early.”

“Not at all. Come in.”

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Back in my apartment, I’m too beat for much more. I place the steak knife on my nightstand and slide under the bed covers still in my blood-soaked clothes. I wipe the sticky, red substance that coats my hands on the sheets as best I can and figure I’ll just soak them in cold water tomorrow. 

Closing my eyes, I think about how maybe now with Adam gone, I can finally spend some time in my own dreams. 

Window to the Lost

Grey mist wreaths my eyes. I swat it away and angle my flashlight to illuminate the sharp glimmer that snagged my attention. 

A sharp edge protrudes from the loose dirt, and I tug it free, fingers rubbing away layers of grime to reveal gilt beneath. The glass is fractured by hairline fissures, but the object is still recognizably a mirror. 

I frown. Even the site’s towering walls and iron spears have sagged beneath centuries of detritus; how has this delicate object endured? 

When I polish the cracked glass with my sleeve, I find my brother’s eyes staring out at me. 

Nico Martinez Nocito

Nico Martinez Nocito (they/them) writes speculative poetry and fiction, often with a queer and feminist bent. Their work can be found in Strange Horizons, GRIMM RETOLD, and Flame Tree Press’s MORGANA LE FAY anthology, among others. Find them on Instagram or BlueSky

OTP

I saw them in a serial and I was obsessed: the way Cassia and Connor belonged to each other, every breath shared by the other. 

My star-crossed lovers. 

Ahhhhh, but they’re just acting, acting; real-life Cassia not with real-life Connor. 

Fine. 

I’ll print them out myself. Our 3D printers have been abandoned now that holograms are trending—what a blessing in disguise! I’ll make my babies watch every episode, every season with me. You train them, those AIs, and they’ll be perfect. Molded exactly as their characters. 

Connor and Cassia will finally be together, forever.

My only one true pairing.

Kelley Tai

Kelley Tai is a speculative fiction writer and a CSFFA Aurora Award-nominated poet living in New Jersey. For her full list of published works, please visit kelleytai.com

A Special Day

I took a wrong turn somewhere around the crooked tree, and now I’m lost. Maybe I should’ve been leaving a trail of breadcrumbs from the lunch Mother packed for the occasion… but I was so hungry. All that’s left are a few flecks on my mittens.

It’s getting dark. Shadows loom, clawed hands held high. I tell myself it’s just the trees, caught by the fingers of the setting sun.

Trees don’t howl, though.

I don’t notice the eyes glimmering in the darkness until it’s too late. By then, I’ve already turned.

The bright-eyed creature, whatever it is, better run.

Nissa Harlow

Nissa Harlow lives in British Columbia, Canada where she dreams up strange stories and writes some of them down. Her short fiction has been published in The Hoolet’s Nook, Weird Lit Magazine, and 50-Word Stories. She is also the author of a number of novels and novellas, all embellished with a touch of the fantastic. You can find her online at nissaharlow.com.

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