Serial Saturday: Degeneration by Sarah Busching, Chapter One
Chapter One
A stranger saves me from being crushed to death by a grand piano. I don’t understand what’s happening until it’s over. One moment, I’m stopped in front of a boutique, window browsing, and the next, a man has shoved me ten yards down the sidewalk like a linebacker.
I scream, at first because a man grabbed me, and then again, louder and longer, because a piano has crashed where I was just standing.
“Oh my god, oh my god,” I shriek, and burst into tears.
“You’re okay,” the man says, awkwardly patting my back.
“Imurgerrrrld,” I sob. “I waaaa! I wasssss there, right? Oh my god.”
The man tries politely to disentangle himself from my clawed fingers while I hiccup and snort.
“I need to thank you,” I say when my sniffles have stopped and I’ve found my tissues in my purse. “Let me, ah…” I trail off. “Coffee. Drink?” I attempt.
“It’s nothing,” he says.
I wipe my nose and peer up at him. I step back, startled, hit with an overwhelming sense of familiarity. I know these brown eyes, faint lines crinkling around them and across his forehead, even though I’ve never met him before.
One of the piano movers has exited the crane and calls out, “Hey! Are you okay?” He probably wants to see if I’m going to sue them. I don’t want to talk to him alone.
“What’s your name?” I turn to ask my rescuer, but he’s already gone.
#
I see him on the way to work one day. I’m walking on the cobblestone path along the river, taking the long way, and I spot him standing on the other side, waving wildly at me. It’s the green beanie that I remember. He points just in time for me to start running.
A jet-ski has gone rogue, flying at an outrageous speed straight for shore. It bounces high on the water’s surface and skids up the bank. I barely escape, and by the time I’ve raced out of the way, my rescuer has disappeared.
#
I start taking nighttime antihistamines to help me sleep. After a week, I tell myself to kick the habit, but it turns into a month, then two. I open my windows and the city’s light-studded darkness comes screaming in. I let the muggy southern heat drown me.
#
I have a theory, and I decide to test it. It works as quickly as I expected.
I lie down on a train track.
The train’s arrival isn’t imminent, but it should pass through within the hour. A “NO TRESPASSING” sign is labeled with the train corporation’s name in a menacing red.
The sun has set, but there’s still a little light beyond what the street lights provide. This track goes through an empty grassy lot and then over the river, so there’s nobody else around. I lay in between the rails, eyes closed, listening to traffic.
I wonder what will happen if any of my friends or coworkers see me lying here. Downtown, there’s always a good chance I’ll run into a friend or someone from my office or my hiking group. And with my latest promotion, there are even more people at my engineering firm who would recognize me.
“What the hell are you doing?” It’s his voice.
I open my eyes. He’s standing over me.
“Hi,” I say, unable to keep from grinning in triumph.
With the sun fading behind him, his face is shadowed, but his voice is wary as he asks, “Are you suicidal?”
“Nope.”
He sighs and holds out a hand to me. I take it and let him help me up, and he keeps holding my hand until we’ve moved well away from the track.
We stop and stare at each other as he releases my hand. He’s a little above average height and wearing a dark green beanie, so I can’t see most of his hair, but what is peaking out looks light brown, matching a short brown beard. Cute, albeit exhausted-looking. I name all his clothes to myself like I’ll be called to a witness stand: black running shoes, jeans, and a racer jacket, but not a fancy one, one that’s wrinkled like it’s been slept in.
“Why were you lying down on a train track?” he asks me.
“You tell me.”
“What does that mean?”
But I know he knows. “Why do you keep appearing when I’m about to get killed in freak accidents? Are you…” I sigh. He’s really going to make me say it out loud. “Are you my guardian angel?”
“What? No!” He frowns.
I frown back. “You don’t have to act like I’m being crazy. I know something weird is going on.”
He rubs the back of his neck. “I told you this would happen,” he mutters.
The train’s horn blows from the other side of the river.
I raise my eyebrows. “You told who this would happen?”
“You,” he says. “I’m sorry.”
The train honks louder as it rolls over the bridge, at no more than thirty miles per hour.
“Who are you?” I ask.
“My name’s Chris,” he said, which explains absolutely nothing.
“I’m Natalie,” I say.
“I know,” he replies, somehow managing not to be creepy, or at least, not any creepier than this already is.
We watch the train and its coal cars rumble by. Every car is tagged, and the graffiti colors go by like a daydream.
“Let me buy you a drink,” I offer, half-yelling over the screech of the train wheels.
“You don’t want to,” he says, his expression failing to suppress some old hurt.
A broken heart, I decide. But the feeling that I know him has oddly translated into a deep need that’s making me nervous. “Hey, it’s not a date. I just want to say thanks,” I reassure him. “Let’s just go have a fun evening.” I’m practically begging, but I have to know why he keeps showing up.
We wander up the street, and, terrified that he’ll vanish again, I try to herd him into the first open bar. He shakes his head and says, “I know a better place.”
We walk for several more blocks until he stops at a door in a tall wooden fence and leads us in a patio garden. There’s no signage on the gate or anywhere else, but Chris says, “This is Wiley’s.”
A giant tree stands in the center of the patio, with dozens of metal lanterns hanging off its feathery branches. Clusters of wicker chairs and couches with brightly patterned pillows dot the space. There’s no music playing, but the low hum of conversation and not-too-distant traffic fills it with white noise.
He leads us to a bar under a vine-draped pergola and orders us two beers. There are space heaters here, and Chris unzips his jacket, revealing a plain t-shirt with absolutely no clues to his identity or interests. I unzip mine, too, and sit down. I have to admit, I sort of dressed up for him, wearing my dressiest jeans and a black top.
“You look nice,” he says.
“Thanks.”
I haven’t had dinner, but I’m too jumpy to eat. We watch our beers being poured in silence.
After a sip, I ask, “Why do I feel like I know you? How do you always know when I’m about to die? Can you see the future or something?”
He smiles at me and my heart breaks and I don’t know why. “No.”
I wait a moment. “Are you going to elaborate?”
“I don’t know.” He takes an awfully large swig of his beer.
“Hmm,” I say. In an overly introductory voice, I drawl, “Well, I’m an engineer.”
“Electrical?” he asks, as if randomly guessing.
I squint. He’s not guessing. “Yeah,” I say. “And you… save people?”
“Sure.”
I sip my beer. “Where do you get the funding?”
He laughs at that. “That’s funny. I do spend a lot of time worrying about funding.”
I raise an eyebrow. “Not what I thought you were going to say. Are you in a nonprofit?”
“No. I’m a neuroscientist.”
“Let me guess, you started in academia and switched to commercial because you got tired of—”
“Tired of not making money,” he finishes. “Yeah.”
I snort. “My brother’s a PhD, too.”
We chat a bit more about jobs, but eventually there’s a lull in the conversation.
“I’m sorry, but this is still super weird,” I say. “What’s going on here?”
“May I show you?” he asks.
“Okay. What do you mean—”
In response, he reaches out a hand and gently touches the side of my head.
—his tongue in my mouth his hand pushing my knee my hand pulling his hair—
I gasp, pulling away like I’ve been burned.
His face is red, and he’s staring very hard at his glass.
After I stop gaping, I whisper, “What was that?”
“A memory,” he says, still unable to look at me.
“That can’t be a memory.”
“It’s yours,” he says quietly.
“But we’ve never met before…” I trail off. He’s telling the truth. I’m not scared at all. In fact, I’m hot, literally sweating, and I want to hop off my barstool and climb into his lap and wrap my legs around him like an octopus.
Thankfully, before I have the chance, a tall woman in athleisure appears at his side, startling me so that I loudly huff out the breath I’ve been holding.
“What are you doing here?” she snaps at me.
I’m sure my eyes bulge. “Oh, my god. Are you his girlfriend?”
“Absolutely not.” She shakes her head. “For fuck’s sake, Natalie.”
I draw back. “Sorry, do I know you?”
Her mouth falls open. “Apparently not.” She turns to Chris. “For fuck’s sake, Chris!”
“It’s not my fault,” he says.
“Isn’t it, though?”
Chris says to me, “This is Prisha.”
When I glance at her, Prisha gives me a goofy little wave that I was entirely not expecting, and I’m surprised enough to wave back. She smiles as if we’ve just shared a joke. The interaction loosens something in my chest.
Prisha waves the bartender over and asks for our check. To us, she says, “Sorry guys, but we’ve got to go.”
“We?” I ask at the same time Chris asks, “They’re here already?”
“You should have known,” Prisha says to him.
Chris glances at me hesitantly. “You should probably come with us.”
Prisha rolls her eyes. “I can’t believe we’re doing this again.”
I shiver. “Again?”
She looks at Chris. “Your turn to explain.” She smiles at me apologetically.
The bartender brings back the check and Prisha puts down a card and winks at me. “Least I can do for interrupting your date.”
Chris switches it out for his card before she can protest. He stands up, leaving half his beer undrunk. I don’t quite chug mine, but I do finish it quickly. They wait expectantly, but I keep sitting after I set my glass down.
“Well, bye,” I say.
“I’m serious about you coming with us,” Chris says.
“No thanks,” I reply, wondering if I should say I’m going to the bathroom and then sneak out the back door.
“Just walk with us. We’ll stay on this street. There’s still a lot of people out,” Prisha offers.
My hands clutch the sides of my stool like these people are going to physically grab me. Prisha steps back a little, glancing at the gate. Chris looks like he’s trying to apologize, but he says, “You’re safe with us. I know this is weird, but also, you laid down on a train track tonight.”
It would be a questionable decision to follow two strangers out onto the street at night, but I picture the grand piano, the jet-ski, the train track. It would be nice to be able to sleep without diphenhydramine. So I follow them.